Round 2

Ugh.

The past few "bonus" days (which is what the "boat wives" and myself have been calling them) felt like a dream. Even though the guys had been gone for about only a week - when that man walked through the gate at the end of the pier - my heart skipped a beat.  So full of mixed emotions - a little anger and a little excitement. Needless to say - I'm grateful. We were able to talk, laugh, and cry. I was able to get his help/advice on some issues... It was just nice. We even got a weekend day to sleep in and enjoy. Never saw that coming. 

Being a military spouse - "Goodbyes" are a very big part of your life. If you know me, I don't do goodbye's well. I never have. It's just a part of who I WAS. Since moving here, and Trent transferring to Sea Duty - much to  my dismay, Goodbye's have always seemed to be right around the corner. As crazy as it sounds, I'm so happy to say that I'm done with goodbyes for the next few months - the countdown to a port call and HOMECOMING have commenced in full force.

Every wife/girlfriend/fiance deals with the farewell's differently. That I learned pretty quickly. Even down to the Underway's that last only a few days. There are seasoned wives that seem to be able to transition really quickly and not shed a tear, (although - I know ya'll go home and cry your eyes out - you ladies are just trying to act all hard HA!) Then there are others who say goodbye, give their husbands a hug/kiss and simply cry when dropping their sailors off, then leave.  Then you have  the crazy's. The ones that say their goodbyes, kiss/hug, write the farewell letter, cry - wait, I mean the UGLY cry - and plant their butt at the end of the pier and WAIT until the boat is no longer in sight.  I. Am one. Of. Those CRAZY'S. The cat is out of the bag - but really? How hard was it for ya'll to guess that one?! I have a process for everytime Trent leaves and as sad as it is, I follow it to a "T". Trent even throws me the "I love you" sign before he decends into the Hatch/or gets to the point when I can't see him anymore.  Ya know? This sign....

It's always my favorite part of the farewell process. So sweet. Anyhow, as I talked, kissed, and hugged my chief goodbye that day (for the 2nd time - he'd better stay gone until he can come home for good, I tell ya.) for the first time, since we attached to the boat - I felt seasoned. And as seasoned as I felt, I'll never be able to be the wife that just transitions, or just says their goodbyes and leaves. The leaving/grieving process for me is almost therapuetic...I have to know the boat is gone. And apparently I need physical confirmation.  For those of you interested - this is what it looks like:

**   TO  my other wifey's the time/tag/geographics is turned off on this video to be in line with OPSEC. "Loose Lips Sink Ships"

There are other "crazy's" in the car with me - I really don't talk to myself. However, at times, I've been known to yell/talk to inanimate objects that cannot respond back during Underways/Deployments.

Last but not least - Sweet husband - whenever the time comes for you to be able to read and catch up on this blog  (As hard as this day was, ugh - even the second time around) I'm so proud to be your "crazy". I know we both act like loon's before you leave.... Ok. I act like a loon before you leave, and I'm sorry. Thank you for being my hero. Thank your for being such an example to Eloise and Mills. Thank you for selflessly giving yourself for our country and establishing a solid future and foundation for our family. You truly are amazing and I absolutely cannot wait to be in your arms again soon. The twins realize your gone again - and we both know that's the hardest part. But we are staying busy and loading up the schedule with things to do, places to go, and people to see. Today they were great. We kept Nathaniel for a while for Re - and went to the commissary for groceries. The looks I was getting pushing the double stroller and carrying Nate in the B'journ Front Carrier - it was pretty humorous. Whew. Can't wait to have another one.... or two. HA! We had our usually guests for dinner tonight - I made a roast and afterwards, Weez and Mills helped me with the dishes. So cute.

I love you sweet man, and miss you more than words can describe. Waiting here, until you return. See you in my dreams....

Me.